slow suicide

moving

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 03:21:19 PDT

moving blogs again.. hah sorry for the inconvenience? click! NEW BLOG click!

check it out <<3

bleh..

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 13:13:51 PDT

umm hi. i dont really feel like writin an entry but for some reason i feel like i should? i duno.
things are crap. i hate it. changing lots. i guess thats for the better right? uhh hope so. not to
much music work goin on over here. i think i give up. i dont know. nina said she wants to play
with us. stephanies outta town. this is spring break and i think its going to suck. listening to
the movie, Honey in the background. Jessica Alba is soooooo hot! ::-sigh-:: umm other than
that.. i dont know what to write really. today was easter and i got all dressed up and ready for
church. flipped out my hair n i think i like it that way better than just straight. we'll see. i still
need to experiment.. got clothes to cut up. things to design.. i broke a nail and it hurt. bleh.
went to the doctors on friday. got xrays done (i dont remember if i wrote that in here yet) but
yeah.. some kind of scoliosis (sp?) some rare thing i dont know but my spine is all kinds of
fucked up lol i think im guna ask for one of the xray pics for muh room it looks freaky its purdy
cool. tuesday i gotta go to see an orthopedist and see whats really up. well i gotta jet no one
talkin online. laterz.

candle lights and fireworks

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 15:00:02 PDT

standing on the edge of morning
scent of sex and new found glory
playing as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away
she's feeling worthless
used again but nothing's different
she'd stay the night
but knows he doesn't care
~~home by three~~
deafening quiet
the porch light's off
yes they forgot it
she'd cry herself to sleep
but she don't dare
and she wants to be a model
she wants to hear she's beautiful
she's beautiful

hey whats up.. no new entries for a while i musta forgot. nothing much new lately to write
about anyway. today was alright went to guitar lessons then got my hair cut - Xtremly short..
shopping spree at the mall.. fun stuff i guess. for the first time ever shopping did not make
me feel any better. akward eh... umm im nervous. monday will be.. fun.. but weird kind of.
and im nervous. tomorrow is easter. happy easter to every one. umm my heart is racing.
i hate what im doing. but i cant say no.

I AM 63% EMO!

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

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hmm

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 08:36:53 PDT

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Intelligence
In a survival situation, you:	Play dead
Your hidden talent is:	Courage
Your gift is:	An iron constitution
In groups, you:	Get the party started
Your best quality is:	Your inclusiveness
Your weakness is:	Your jealous nature

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44 caliber love letter

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 23:48:50 PDT

hmm im too lazy to type in a new entry so i'll just copy-n-paste my other entry from
the blog that Sami Wami and i made<<333 link will be out soon but not yet - tis not ready yet

standing on the edge of morning
scent of sex and new found glory
playing as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away
she's feeling worthless
used again but nothing's different
she'd stay the night
but knows he doesn't care
home by three
deafening quiet
the porch light's off
yes they forgot it
she'd cry herself to sleep
but she don't dare
and she wants to be a model
she wants to hear she's beautiful
she's beautiful

okay well today was alright i guess.. woke up - tired as mess.. dont go to sleep after 3 in the
A.M. when you've got school to go to.. it just doesnt work out nicely.. umm i made a banner
to put up part time until we've got a good enough one that sami wami and i can settle on!! : D
::-sigh-:: no more blog stuff for me today. not after this entry.. hah (theres only one hour left
for today) umm yeah school was a drag - the usual crap.. mom was sleeping on the couch by
the time that i got home from school. she's still sick.. poor mother. umm i made my sister a
blog today Letting Go then.. my sister and i went for a drive and got some ice cream *yumm*
i heart oreo-ness. which is wack cause i dnt even like oreo's.. hum hum hum.. then came
home and here i be.. gotta jet though my eyes burn like whoA <<3 Laterz

xox Krystle

So lets make this night be our best mistake

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 13:15:55 PDT

So our open wounds will bleed
Until our veins run dry
Now we have to take this thorn
And tear it from our side
Agitated at the fault line
Still agreed to disagree
Your connected to the heart
But tonight we'll set you free
So swallow the knife
Carve the way for your pride
Now our hands are tied
The problems lie within
So we pray for night
To start over again

ergh i hate parentals. i understand that they - at one point in their lives so far - have made it
through living their lives as teenagers but do they not seem to realize that ohhh i dunno a few
things have changed since then??! ugh i embaress them because i dress different.. so the fuck
what.. im so pissed.. im not even going to write anymore about it in here if you wanna know
about it then ask. otherwise your missin out. well im out cause me and the REAL sami wami are
going to make ourselves a joint-blogger muhahahah our skills together will be most definately
devilish <<3

painting the town your favourite colour

Sun, 04 Apr 2004 09:30:42 PDT

we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling
that we wont give up

ugh.. woke up.. my mom called me and told me we were going to church so i hurried up for
that and then we went.. drove around afterwards looking for houses and whatnot. yep its
officially we really are moving - im good with that its just i hope theres nothing incriminating
in my room.. hmm lol i think im going to ask to pack myself. lol what if they find them hand
cuffs hahah thatd be funny. hmm we were looking at this one house its so pretty it had big
balconies (which i lovvvve balconies ) and it had an underground pool and everything it was
so nice.. but.. it costed lots and my parentals were iffy with the balcony thing. then we went
to walmart and i got the taking back sunday - say it like you mean it cd. me likes. lately ive
been thinking up of the weirdest things i dont know where they come from but they're there
and i guess i'll just have to live with it.. for now - can i take you apart from the inside out? id
like to watch your body tear apart while i stare in wonder and intrigue.. - i have nails now and
i scratch. download aimutation its awesome-neat.. new cell phone sometime this month or
next month. well im tired of typing about me.. im out - laterz

- ps -
play yahoo pool with me
yahoo name - xoxlivesiome
(same as my aim)

all that i can handle

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 13:48:32 PST

we both want the world
but we both know that this gets old
if i could open up my chest then maybe
i could find a way to give you
just a little piece of my heart
sometimes I would rather cut your lips
right off your face than kiss them goodnight
but then - sometimes
you can make a room feel perfect when you try
because a mouth full of lies will leave a sour taste
that cuts just like a knife as it slides down your throat
yeah you would give up the world
and fall to your knees to show me that you care
we could believe in windows
but behind the broken glass are fairy tales

i love you but i hate you and i cant stand to be around you can you handle all this nonsense
or should i tone this down a bit for you? i dont know where i am right now i feel like im stuck
here in the middle of nowhere because i know that your not here and i know that you dont
care and the fucked up thing about this all is that.. no ones ever left the place where all this
began..

im pimpin - deal with it

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 11:58:43 PST

sweety im no freak
so you wont have me
but i have you messed up
with the words you speak
we could be just friends
but you will catch feelings
you be calling me and
you be checking in
I know this might sound like it's hype
but if i want you boy
you'll be MINE, MINE, MINE
one talk my conversation's tight
plus now i got you curious right?
You can call me M-I
crooked letter crooked letter
P-I-M-P
i know you think got game
but baby let me tell you
you aint got more than me
You can call me M-I
crooked letter crooked letter
P-I-M-P
i know you think got game
but baby let me tell you
you aint got more than me

not very much in the mood to write an entry but thought it only fair to those daily readers
that i would do a bit of an update at least.. i duno. umm i had detention again today that
was the last detention and stuff and it was fun. umm me n ryan were sposed to hang out
but everything just basicaly screwed up. umm things are okay? i guess.. umm note to Sami
Wami Imposters - please stop.. its not funny.. its just.. queer..

i am a screw-up

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 10:40:26 PST

can you tell
that im losing myself
i think im trying too hard to
let it show
to let you know
dont trace your footsteps back to me
ive been gone for a long time
waiting on the sidelines
hoping for a chance to play
well i thought i would never leave anything behind
i also never thought id say
tell all my friends im dead
im leaving you this time its for good
tell all my friends that im dead
it won't be long before you forget my name

i dont want to write for today.. lets just say im a deuche bag, an idiot, a dunce..
eh im too exaughsted to go on.. i wonder if i can fix this.. we'll see. if you want
to know about my day then ask. otherwise.. laterz.